…My investors: My Mother, Anna & My Husband.
…My support: Teachers who have changed my life and are still in my life. Mrs. Reemer(My middle school art teacher who saved my life), Mrs. Chwala(Grade school art teacher), Mr. Gary Gletty(grade school music teacher), Mrs. Forsyth Katter(High school teacher who helped me study abroad twice), Mrs. Patricia(my first teacher at age 2.5 at MATC daycare center), ศิรินทร์ ตันกุริมาน and ALL My teachers in Thailand, Italy, Mexico, Guatemala.
…My guidance: my heart, my ancestors, prayers from my familia & friends.
…My inspiration: The voiceless. Past abuse. past struggles.
…My spirit: my ancestors walk with mi each and every step of the way.
…My happiness: All comes from overcoming deep-dark sadness. I work towards never returning to the sadness.
…My wealth: I am the richest woman when I show gratitude towards my investors, my support, my guidance, my inspiration, my spirit, & my happiness.
Ometeolt. To all my Relations.
Today is the first day of 2015, thinking back 15 years ago(basically half of my life), I used to imagine what 2015 and myself would be like. Honestly I thought I would be dead and prayed if i wasnt dead that i would at least be happy. At 31 years old I still feel like a child at heart. But I truly am happy. It has taken me a long time to be happy with myself. Being with my Husband, Aaron, has helped me be able to love myself, to see myself for who i am.
Growing up with no father or father-figure. I used to pray to the Great Spirit, the Creator, Spirits, the sky, the stars, the moon, myself, i would PRAY for one thing, my entire life, to have a man in my life. It didnt have to be specifically a lover or boyfriend, there was just something in me that wanted that male spirit, i was open to any form. I ran the mountains of my ancestor’s land of Mexico for almost one year, running, each step to La Pachamama or Mother Earth, was a prayer. Each pray was a star in the sky I created in my heart. I did this in the mountains of central Mexico in one of the 31 states of The United States of Mexico, Guanajuato. This was my spiritual journey. I was surrounded by ancestors, protected and guided by their love and I literally went where the wind blew, or at least where ever a stray street dog would wonder. But that story will have to wait for another entry. I am new to this ‘blogging’ stuff. But i do want to try to write as much as I can of my memories, my thoughts, my journeys, my struggles, my happiness.
In the state we are in, in this world, there is much reason to lose hope, to lose focus, to feel sad and depressed, unmotivated. But I truly hope and pray for everyone on this earth, that we find the strength to not give up on humanity. WE MUST Fight for justice. I stand in solidarity with all those struggling to be free.
“I am not free while any woman is unfree, even when her shackles are very different from my own.” ~ Audre Lorde
HAPPY NEW YEAR to everyone!